I was really jammy [laughs] I was. Yeah so yeah I'm, I'm now cool so I can say “Yeah I do it for fashion.” But I didn't it, it, when I first, I don't, I don't mind it so much its, its strange because its, its socially its' quite nice to hide behind your hair. I mean if you want, if you don't want people to see you, you just hide behind your hair and it's really comforting to have no hair, to have hair like. When you have no hair it does feel as though everyone's watching you because you've got nothing you, you're just very vulnerable. But I don't, I mean I don't mind it because it's, it's a part of me now.
You know I, I did think a long time about having a wig and things like that but well I didn't think that long about it, I thought, I thought about it having a wig but then I, realising you know my, you know my cancer is now a part of me you know its not as though its something, its something that has happened to me and like its, its not something that I want to shy away from because I am a different person you know since that, my defining moment my cancer being like the thing that's made me is such a large part of my personality. Its like if your character's made up of the summation of all your experiences then my cancer's my biggest experience so it is such a large part of my personality and character so I, I thought well you know I am bald and that's it you know it's, it's just a facet of me. |