I, at first we very and while I was having my Chemotherapy and that sort of thing, I think a couple of months after I finished Chemo I had, I hit very low patch, my Mum herself was diagnosed with an Ovarian, an early stage Ovarian Cancer, so, that was a very, really tough time, because somehow when it's you it's easier to deal with than when it somebody you care about and, and if it's you can work towards getting better, whereas if it's somebody else it's, you're very helpless, so that was a very tough time for me.
So you went, you were coming out of Chemotherapy?
Yeah.
And your Mother was diagnosed?
Yeah, yeah so and she had surgery herself as well so it sort of [pause] it, it made it a lot tougher, and I think, you know, during Chemo there was so much to do when I was so busy worrying about side-effects and taking pills and potions to combat that, and popping to the hospital and that sort of thing, you feel very safe 'cos you're really looked after and it's like you're in this sort of bubble of the hospital, you can ring up any time and, you know, there's people there that are experts [laughs] and, you know, they're looking after you and they're worrying about you, and then you finish your Chemo and a couple of months down the line it's like, “Oo-oo” [laughs]. “Panic” [laughs].
It, I, it was very tough, really tough I just found it, oh I just felt so helpless and I just really wanted to be able to help but I think, I mean we're very lucky, we're very close and there's, there's, you know, we'd be happy to chat about anything and, we're, we were able to share our feelings and I mean I was immensely lucky to have her around during all of my treatment because she's a Nurse and she's a Specialist in Gynaecological Cancer so she really knew everything and I'd sort of be like, “Mum what's this? What am I taking? What are these pills? What?” [Laughs], you know, [laughs] even down to simple things as when I was having my surgery, when I'd have my surgery she was there, and she stayed with me and, you know, she could pass me the sick bowl and [laughs] hold my hand, you know? So I think, you know, we have a strong relationship anyway, but then when she was ill it was sort of, you know, it made it even stronger because we were able to share, share things [laughs] yeah.
I think my Dad's gone bit balder [laughs] and probably a bit greyer [laughs] yeah I think because my brother lives in Scotland he, I think, although obviously it must have been tough for him, he's and he's a very kind of, stiff upper lip character so, [laughs] so he, he sort of, he was less involved than Dad. And Dad was there through, through thick and thin, you know, through all the really tough times, and hormone changes and the menopausal hot flushes [laughs], and all sorts so I think he's had, I think he's probably had the hardest time out of everyone in fact, because he's had to watch two people he really cares about go through it. So it's I think it was really hard for him and, you know, 'cos he doesn't come from the medical profession he's sort of, whereas Mum did, it was sort of like he wanted everything explained to him and sometimes people would just maybe assume that, that he'd know or we'd know, because, because of what Mum did but yeah, but I think he's sort of, I also think he feels pretty lucky that, that, that we've both come out okay the other side so yeah but I think he found it very stressful. |